Days of Gratitude, Day 1: Starting From Scratch

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There’s nothing that clears the mind more than a fresh start.  After months of letting this go fallow, I’ve decided to start it all over again.

I’m grateful for new starts- genuine new starts, not “do-overs”.  A do-over is based in expectation.  I tried something, it did not yield the desired result, I’ll do it over!  Most of the time this ends in frustration.  As the saying goes, if at first you don’t succeed, try, try again… then quit.  No use being a damn fool about it.

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I have no idea of W.C. Fields actually said this, it is the internet after all.

A fresh start is when you stop looking at the past and live in the present.  Yes, I used to be way more active in blogging, but I haven’t been for a while now.  I want to be again because I have an honest desire to write, not because I regret not being as active as I once was.

I used to be in way better shape.  I was a competitive strongman and Olympic style weightlifter.  I was pretty strong and had really good conditioning.  When I would pick up a barbell in recent months it was because part of me wanted to have what I did ten years ago, not because I want to exercise in the now.  So when I start fresh, I’m doing more than just tossing out my old personal records, I am changing how I train, from the type of exercises I do, to the frequency, to the reasons why.

The same goes with music.  I picked up my drumsticks and played songs from one of my old bands, The Commercials, for the first time since 2012.  It’s literally been that long since I played the drums in any kind of earnest.  Why didn’t I keep up, even though I had a drum kit moldering in my house?  Because I was afraid of what I couldn’t do anymore due to my back injury.  I was so afraid that I forgot about what I could do.  Today, when I played, I was far from perfect, but I discovered that yeah, I could still play, and play quite well if I practiced.  I noticed immediate improvement within the first half hour.  I have two months to get ready for the show.  I *can* do this.

I can’t think of a better time to start fresh.  I’m thankful for the chance.

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